rediscovering myself
I recently read a blog post by reverie, a wonderful blogger on bear on using blogging as a means to become more tethered with oneself that I really resonated with.
I think in the past few years, I've forgotten about the "real" me and became more the "work" me - the version that is hounding on his industry career, getting his research published, and is climbing up the big adulting ladder. But in this chase of sorts I feel that I've lost a big, big part of myself.
Is it silly to want to reclaim little pieces of myself through some good old-fashioned anonymous blogging?
Well, maybe.
But at this point, I don't really care! It's about time for a conversation with myself. I've been ignoring her in favor of external distractions.
-reverie
I have this inner feeling that by allowing myself to be honest, raw, and open with myself here, I'd reconnect with the real me and give him some much-needed time. I've kept a weekly journal since I was in elementary school that described my day to day activities, but it wasn't often that I went deep into the big ideas and explored my hopes, fears, and desires. Mostly because I was a little scared. Perhaps this blog is the first time I'd concretely do that in my life.
Inspired by reverie's post, here's how I'd like to examine the current version of me:
Examining who I am now
- How past events shaped me to the present me
- What I want to accomplish in this life
- The source of my wellbeing/happiness
- The people I truly care about
This is a little adventure to find myself again, and I hope you join me on this little journey of mine to rediscover 'me'. I leave you with one last little bit from that same blog post from reverie:
I was so self-assessing when I was younger; constantly pondering who I was and what I was made of. I'd like a little of that back. I want to feel like I'm made of something sturdy and real again.
Take care,
-pesto